snakes brakes and these wheels keep on turning

My big brother and me!

This picture has two-fold purpose. 1:pretty sure my brother and I are leaning over the edge of a small mountain which is exciting and 2: my asian way of posing for the picture represents my Japanese ways of living right now... ie. there's an absence of furniture in my room!

I've been learning a lot lately... about God, patience, trust, and plans.

My heart ached again tonight as I was reminded just how there are entire nations of people who will never hear the awesome news that Jesus Christ came to save them. There are so many little alcoves of communities deep into the mountains, far into the deserts that could continue to exist: people being born, being raised, starting families, dying... BANG and never, not even ever hearing the Gospel. That almost brings me to tears and my heart skips a beat.

Not only does that bring me to my feet and cause me to want to GO... but remember Piper, 'Missions exist because worship doesn't'. The result of worship is missions and GOD DESERVES TO BE WORSHIPPED to the ends of the earth! I learnt that its way more about God as an act of worship... to go... so that eventually every nation will be bowing down to Christ our King praising God for who He is!

So because of all this, I've been resting. Oxymoronic don't you think?! But really, because of this whole program switch, there has been huge amount of worry and anxiety (like I've never experienced before) which is dumb, but it's there. So now I'm resting in knowing that ... really... although God cares about all the details of our life, He has a MUCH greater story and cool enough, He wants YOU AND ME to be in it! When I'm looking at how short our time is here on earth and trying to grasp the big picture... the big story that God has intended for us, I am quickly at peace knowing that my purpose is far greater than 'kathleen lived to save the trees' or 'kathleen exists to build wetlands and oodle over birds'!

'But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.' Phillipians 3:14